Funny
También leeré textos más recientes que he escrito en los últimos dos años en Tijuana como parte de la maestría que hice en la UC San Diego. (Hombrecitos que caminan de la mano y ríos que crean espacios y juegos peligrosos con el género.)
Proyectaré imágenes de los dos proyectos durante la lectura. Los textos vienen siendo en español e inglés con unos toques de francés y karankawa.
Espero verlos allí.
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Please come out to a reading of texts from a new chapbook, Undone, which is being published as part of the Dusie Kollektiv 2011. The book includes photos and texts from a project-the Catalogue of Feeling-I did in 2008. (Chairs that tumble over and ripping pants and emotional rain.)
I'll also be reading more recent texts I've written in the last two years in Tijuana as part of the MFA I did at UC San Diego. (Little men walking hand in hand and rivers that make spaces and dangerous gender-play.)
I'll be projecting images from both projects during the reading. The texts have ended up being in Spanish and English with some occasional flourishes in French and Karankawa.
I hope you can make it.
Hay que reconocer:
what i presumed to be mostly dead
turns out
is thriving
on the other side of the border
Cerebral + Sexy!
esencial, que el mundo en que vivimos es
inventado. No creo que el arte revele la
realidad, al contrario, la inventa, porque la
realidad es intraducible.
Every queer kid should have a queer mom.
Suddenly, an older lesbian had invited me to her garden, to walk around, to dig in the dirt, to plant some vegetables and flowers. I still don't really know what exactly was happening to me at that time. (My memories are difficult to access and confused in the best of times, but with the added thickness of trauma, I have little sense of what happened in reality or if reality stopped existing for a while. I think a gap grew between that thing called reality and my brain.)
This woman walked me through the garden and showed me the roses (this is a rose), the peonies (this is a peony), the tulips (this is a tulip), the tiny spring buds (this is a bud). I had forgotten the sky was so large and so blue. I had forgotten the wind was blowing through the trees, that somewhere thousands of feet above the earth cumulus clouds were rearranging and rain was forming to nourish these plants.
For the first time, on that bucket in that garden, crying out of my eyes and nose and mouth, I received the gift of queer intimacy, of queer support and queer love. An elder stepped into the void in my world and the void in my sense of self and community. An elder named what was happening to me. A person gave names to my fears, my worries, my tears and my struggles. A woman helped me to recognize my own softness, my own woundedness and to help me put myself back together again. No, not back together again, she helped me to be all my pieces, beautiful and broken and solid and mushy and green, for the very first time.
For once, I burrowed my hands in the earth, got dirty, allowed myself to breathe again, to forgive myself, to be queer for myself and for her, most deeply, for her, for an us that I was experiencing for the first, earth-shaking time.
I wish every queer kid could have a queer mother to guide him, shelter her, lead xer through the weeds (this is a weed) and the lavender (this is lavender), through the rosemary (this is rosemary) and the irisis (this is an iris). To name the things as they are. To point out the beauty in broken things. To imagine how we might live without being fixed.
Feminism: Transmissions and Retransmissions
A veces :
: la celebración enmascara la corrupción mejor que la denigración :
: y la decadencia llega a ser otra manera de facilitar la impunidad.
A Report from the Front
(As an extension of that point, I feel a bit strange, uncomfortable posting these copied notes from the performances. I am guessing most of the artists have Google Alarms on your names and will stumble on this eventually. I copied down words from each of your pieces during the performances. In the process of copying, I surely made mistakes and desired those mistakes and I definitely added some new words and made different pieces than the ones you performed. I see this as a way of being in dialogue, exchange. It is a process based on taking though, so knowing taking has a history, all feedback is welcome and will be responded to.)
1.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Writers's block. The circumvolutions of stopped minds. You get the idea.
2.
All the dead voices
make noise like feathers.
If you can't transcend, you might as well descend.You can start from anything.
The silence clamors in my ears.
Let's confront each other.
Impossible.
What if we gave thanks for our mercies.
Where did all the corpses come from?
These skeletons?
Words fail. Is that not so that even words fail at times?
I am not a historian.
We embraced.We were happy.
Let's just keep going. The things you put into your head are there forever.
However much we resist, we're barely contained.
3.
(I/this feeling of awkward/us)
4.
Don't worry about what others are doing. We are all doing the same thing in a different sequence.
5.
Spiritual warrior or one who is warlike. This is not a real name. To become a freer name in the process. On the other hand, a title explains. We've reached a point where the images aren't enough⎯a title appears. The typeface is feminine⎯strong and confident in the middle of the frame.
(We have no way of getting to things anymore.)
In case you ever find yourself asking what the right thing is.
(Different is MLK without his voice. When his words become a title.)
Malcolm X thinks there are plenty of good people in America. Consider the today of the past. He is no longer a boy leaving the hood. The writing on the wall. They're not representative⎯they're instructive. I suggest giving up. Make yourself vulnerable. Be moved by the spirit of the show. Open yourself up to the opportunity of being used.
6.
that looks like me
1959
in the middle who
plugs
down
locked up line.
my siblings.
a baby a desert a wizard to
fit in the weather
he was raped.
(Pay attention to the tap dance. Or don't. Slideshows are the epitome of boringness.)
a common reaction that you have to do
you stamp your feet
this is cutthroat
i tell him "pancreatic ducts"
the tap dance,
more steps.
blue bonnets and a black man in a blonde wig.
until you're tired.
of the tap dance.
(Play with boringness.)
Out of the David Bowie the den.
1. From the performance of Two Poems By Michael "Truth" Graham & Khorey "Greatness" Smith
2. From the performance of Better then Than When Life Was Babble? By Harold Mende
3. From the performance of The Discussant By Jina Valentine
4. From the performance of So Much I Want To Say By Ayanna Jolivet McCloud
5. From the performance of The Didactic Possibilities of Film Titles By Martine Syms
6. From the performance of Adventures in Babysitting By Jibade-Khalil Huffman
5. Instructions: Narrative tucks information in.
Arrange the books on the shelf according to gradations of color.
Every day for at least seven days, make a poem, paragraph, painting, performance, sculpture, stitched piece, instruction piece, or dessert, taking inspiration from a suite of three books from the same color-field.
Send documentation of the results to chris@futurepoem.com.